One of the most important things I’ve learned as a mother, and apparently still working on, is how to balance things. Everyday, it seems like my to-do list is endless, and continuously growing. Dishes keep coming, clothes keep getting dirtier, the dog repeatedly needs to go to the bathroom…it’s almost unnerving, and never-ending. For some reason lately, my OCD (obsessive cleaning disorder in my case), has come on full force. I can’t stand to have any dishes in the sink, clothes on the floor, toys out of the toy-basket, blankets unfolded, or spots on the counter. Everything in my house has a “home” as I like to call it, and I have to make sure everything is put back where it goes.
So..I find things getting out of balance. I can’t enjoy time with my family because I’m too worried about something needing to be done. Thinking about the dishes alone makes me anxious, and almost nervous. But why? Why can’t I just accept the fact that there will ALWAYS be dirty dishes, and laundry, and toys to pick up?
I guess it doesn’t make things any easier, having Brandon, who doesn’t care anything about the house being clean..as long as he has food on the table, he’s happy. So of course, upon walking through the door, I can count on boots in the middle of the kitchen, two socks on the couch, followed by a shirt..and then at least two drinking glasses. Along with Brandon, I have two children under the age of 2. Paige, is a walking tornado. Everything she touches ends up on the floor. But oddly enough, I can already see that she will get the clean genes. She stole my broom yesterday, and started sweeping her changing table. Colt on the other hand, is 4 months old…he has an excuse.
I finally had to put a stop to things yesterday, when I went behind Paige 4 times, and put her toys back in her toy box…only to see her walk back over there, and throw each one over her shoulder onto the floor. I need to get back to maintaining balance in our day. Cleaning at certain times, and playing at certain times. Unfortunately this is easier said than done. I need to work on it.